Posted by: mylovingheart | May 18, 2014

Love Will Always Be There!

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The last couple of months seem to have gone by so fast.  During that time I found myself looking at what I had in my life and what were things that no longer were necessary.  Recently I read a book, Love in the Time of Cholera and there was this quote that just jumped off the page at me “…human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them but that life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves.”  I thought of all of the times that life has allowed me an opportunity to give birth to my purpose, but most of all to love.  To allow myself to just find what makes me happy and also to give back in some way.  To allow the people in my life to just be who they are and to love them in every way possible.

Recently my son and son-in-law graduated from college.  Plans are being made for my son-in-law to take a position with a company in another state and for him and my daughter to move away.  My son is making plans to relocate to another state also.  I find myself being so happy for them and excited to have them take the life lessons I have given them and now chart their own course.  At the same time not having my children in the same city will feel quite different.  The intelligent side of me knows that this is a natural order of things that your children would grow up and move on.  You have been preparing them for this moment to go find their wings and fly.  As a mother who has already lost her husband/their Dad, I feel as if my heart can’t let go.  I feel (as the quote above says) that life is obliging me to give birth to myself again.  Whenever you have to go through this process it can be exciting and scary at the same time.  To be comfortable with the unknown of the future and for now just be “present”.  I cannot hold on too tight because now is the time when I need to open up my hands and let go.

What I have learned is that when God is closing one chapter He always has a new chapter that is even sweeter coming down the road.  I have watched it happen so many times.  He continues to bring sweet sweet friendships and experiences, so that I never feel alone and unloved.  Every time I give it over to Him and allow him to birth in me what He wants in my life, it is always much better than anything I could have dreamed for myself.  For now, I am going to kiss my children goodbye and love them from a distance.  No matter what, I know that God will hold them close for me.  I just need to have faith in his promises and trust in his timing for this new chapter in my life.  One thing for sure, love will always be there!


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